I am a big collector of a strange 70s doll and so I would go to a lot of thrift shops to try and find them.  They were a bit harder to find, but I never left without some sort of treasure.  I would often find Ouijas and for some reason I would snatch them up without any hesitation.  I brought home a lot more than I bargained for, and I am still trying to piece together my paranormal experiences.  I still have two boards with me now and I find comfort knowing that they are there… strange, perhaps?  Yes, but I am becoming less and less afraid.  Even when I was little I opened a door without any Ouija’s to experience my first metaphysical taste.  I was always sensitive and thought it would be cool to hold a seance like a witch. By burning candles and a few spiders I was soon on my way!  I was only a stupid kid and had no idea that it would lead to such a wicked energy.  That must have opened the door, as well as the Ouija boards, it must be the reason for my experiences.  It doesn’t help that I am prone to sensing energy though.  This blog is helping me piece together the bits to help answer a lot of my questions.  I know that I will never exactly know everything, but at least I am on the way to easing my mind. I totally believe that there is something else… something of a paranormal nature. Energy never dies but exactly what happens after death is still a big mystery to me and probably to so many others. If we as humans would stop fueling wars and hate and start focusing on science we could surely find out. We could also cure death entirely too if we wanted. I don’t want to live forever if there is something better though.

I just want to let everyone know that I am feeling very inward lately. I have been holding back because I am just so consumed with my mundane job. I really hate it because it absorbs a lot of my positive and creative energy. It takes all my strength to work in property management and you almost have to disconnect yourself in order to function. I don’t recommend that field to anyone.  It wouldn’t be so bad if there wasn’t some evil people that I had to work closely with, but there are these two people in particular that are in my own department that are the devil. I have worked with a**holes before but it never gets easier. The biggest demon is my boss who is obviously bipolar in how they carry on and how they also allow another very disturbed co-worker to behave even more irrationally then them. The devil jr’s behaviour is very haunting… from slamming office equipment to snapping at clients & fellow colleagues. I feel that this person is really consumed by a lot of negative energy.. they may even be possessed! It’s very difficult to work with that beast and I know my boss is aware and enjoys it. My boss even commented once on how they would like to find new ways to torture us. In this day and age I can not believe that people like that are allowed to continue their employ. They seem to poison the workplace and many a person has complained about these two. I gave myself a cutoff date of when I resign. Good money seems to be the main reason why I stay. I also love working downtown and there are some nice people that I work with to… it only takes one rotten apple to ruin it, but at that place there are two! I don’t allow them to see that they greatly annoy me because the first day that I started I picked up that they were trouble and I was determined to always take the higher road, even if that meant being a bit fake. I have unintentionally driven devil jr to the brink of wanting to kill me lol I can’t help but enjoy her try and try and try to push my buttons with no luck and then end up looking so terrible  herself lol She has gone from trying to make me look horrible to instead make herself look worse… even insane! I know that if it wasn’t for my VP, my boss and her screwed up sidekick would have gotten rid of me long ago, but I am an excellent worker. I have had a vision in a dream about my boss… how she turned a co-worker friend against me when she returned from matt leave. It was so clear that when she came over to me and told me that I was fired and to get out I was a bit shocked.  At this point I know that I could twist this around and actually have what they intended for me to happen to them, but then I would be just as evil. I am not like that.. I do not wish harm or ill fate on anyone. I think the best thing to do is leave. I quit before but they didn’t want me to go and have made every effort in order for me to stay. I just can’t stand the negativity and hate that are emanating from those two twits. I feel so sorry for them in a way because instead of focusing their energy into positive things they are being consumed by this hate. They are very troubled people with lots of issues in their personal lives… it seems the biggest pr#cks at work are the ones with no lives that try to create drama at work to have some sort of life.  I have a great life outside of work and I am the type that can’t hold onto bad vibes!  I have to vent about it right away and then it’s fine, but lately it seems that all the venting in the world isn’t helping and I certainly don’t want to end up miserable like them!  So I have decided that I am going to do something else!  I think I might venture into indulging into a passion instead.  I want to do what I love and not do the 9to5 for someone else anymore!  Thanks for taking the time to read this.. I’m just feeling so… so… weirded out, I guess, would be the best way to describe it. Why did I have to meet and get to know those people. I wonder if the afterlife it is like that? If we feel these troubled souls. I would not want to exist if that were the case. Having a body usually assists in blocking these vibes for most people, unlike myself, but to be totally open to their rot and negativity! Maybe that’s why there is a hell. I really hope I never have to encounter that bs in it’s full capacity.

My main objective is to get out of this hell house… it’s filled with such a bad vibe and I just want to get out.   Dark,  cold, damp  and musky smells consumed my senses… my heart is pounding.  I can feel something coming.   Something bad.   Then out of nowhere a fellow coworker crashes my dream in her usual staggered limp of a walk.   She’s removing her coat ever so slowly as I watch her, all confused, she turns to me and said her usual good morning.  I shook that off and I decide to pick up the pace so I could get the hell out of there.  I managed to get outside and weave in and out of the neighborhood until I crashed into consciousness.  Then that Monday morning I read an email that the same person that I dreamed about had to take a rather long leave of absence.  I have never thought of this woman outside of work, let alone dream about her and then she ends up getting so sick she can’t work for a while… so strange! I told one of my close friends at work about it, as well as the fact that I am a Libra and very sensitive, she looked at me and said “oh boy that’s strange!”.  Isn’t it?!

“I’m not actively participating in any group meets. I’m very private when it comes to my paranormal world. It’s very personal to me and I’m not ready to join a meet up group right now, if ever.”

I mean I do want to go, don’t get me wrong, but I just feel that I have to reach a certain level before I can benefit a group and/or the persons that have invited us into their home, or where ever. I take the paranormal very very seriously, not saying that no one else does, but I strongly feel that I have to know more before I can experience any meets. Too many energies maybe? Maybe we wouldn’t attract as much or maybe too much. I found out recently that I was not attacked by a human spirit in the past. What if there are demons in the mix?! I have always been prone to receiving energy, so for me that negative energy is the absolute worst feeling that I have ever encountered. Long story short, I just can’t participate in a group meet. I would, however, like very much to apprentice someday soon. I think an experienced mentor would be ideal.